Engaging Your Mind ... Look for God

Lately im pondering.

Bible said that the world will look at us, saying what a fool, for believing in something not tangible. So I took it literally, acting like a fool. Just believing, clinging to the belief, sometimes doubting and trying to turn it down. Seldom was my doubt answered, I just try to suppress it, rationalise it, after all, we're supposed to look like a fool aren't we ?

But that same bible also said about believing with your heart and mind. Believing with your soul, but also with your MIND. Meaning intellectually, pragmatically, realistically .. Wow

Im afraid i might fall, it might rock my faith. But the more I think about it, the more it rang. Afraid to look because I might fall, I might lose my faith .. isn't that means that Im not faithful ?

So we embark on a journey, will not going to shy away from difficult question, will look for an answer for my doubt, will avoid the cliche of God's will (it's been used too much anyway)... I have faith that He'll strengthen me..

Let's start with Language of God (written by Human Gnome project leader). And we'll see after it.

Thanx

Integrating My Life as a Manager - Teaching a new trick to an old dog

I have learned that actually I like to be considered as a nice guy. It's nice to feel that I've helped someone and I have add value to one's life.

As I went into management role, sometimes I have to make hard decision, I end up hurting someone, or sometimes I just can't do a thing. And then I think I am not so nice anymore.

Anyway a sorely needed analysis from my side shows ... Hmmm to add value, doesn't mean that someone have to like me. Or to rephrase... it doesn't mean that someone have to feel that I have helped him.

Add value means reproving, add value means helping, add value means coaching, add value means a lot of thing...

And add value didn't have to mean ... I make them feel good ...


Still so hard to do ... thus i thought .... am I becoming co dependent ?


I hope not ... need to teach this dog a new trick ... on how to add value based on what I believe and doing it in a mindful, compassionate way.

God Will Take Care of Me

"Follow the Leader! That's what God is saying. You don't have to be smart to be obedient. You don't have to be creative or clever. All you have to do is obey. We think we have to sort of outwit God on the horizontal. But God says, "I know your situation. I'm telling you exactly what you ought to do, so go do it. Take a heifer, go to Jesse, offer the sacrifice, and look around. I'll tell you the man I've chosen for the job." Isn't that simple?"


Only 3 minutes before, I am ranting that I am stressed out ... I want God to change me to be a better learner ... Im pooped by life. Then one click and voila ....

He is a supreme being, divine person, with a weird loving sense of humor ...

Mixed emotions

Have mixed emotions today...

I am currently sitting in starbucks drinkin coffee and eating sadwich. I am unable to talk. The throat is sore, i lost my voice about 2-3 hours ago and have this terrible headache. i went here to buy fgtrotces something to alleviate my throat.
Office matters is ok today after some haywire several days back. Find that i hv too many monkey (actually a zoo pool of crittens).
a best friend said he's leaving and tho i really glad for his undertaking, therse a twinge of sadness as we're going to be fighting in different boats now.

how come i feel peace also ya? out of the up and down the roller coaster ride?

if i am goin to reflect? wha lesson will i took over these happening

some may suggest detachment. vut i feel ejoyment. maybe because i enjoy the turmoil.

now if only my daughter nanny would cancel her resination

Robbed !!!

2 hours before posting this blog ...

I was robbed ...

Handphone, laptop, ipod ... Gone !

It was 3 to 4 guys in motorcycle, and they managed to deceive me.

Well ... i dunno what to say, what to feel. But i do know, damn ... i have a lot of things to do, to reclaim my life (that laptop contains 9 years of work !!! and i put the backup there also !) ...

Let's start doing it ...